Do you ever find yourself embroiled in an ongoing drama you just can’t shake? Or perhaps you’re in a different time with different people but the same situation?
It’s easy to look at a familiar cast of characters and say “Why does this always happen to me?” The more powerful question is, “What role am I playing?”
This isn’t about self-blame. It’s about self-inquiry. Understanding how deeply identified you may be with a particular role then gives you the freedom to stop typecasting yourself. Only then can you shift the dynamic to something more favorable.
Who you engage and how you engage them is of consequence in your moment to moment experience. Every interaction is an energy exchange and rarely are they neutral.
We are undeniably entangled and to maintain and enhance your reserves depends on your level of conscious engagement. That is not to say that each interaction must be one of profound meaning, but it is to consistently account for the replenishing and depletion of your energy.
Each party can leave fully charged, completely drained or one can feed off the other. Your mindfulness will dictate the outcome.
When our triggers are set off, rationale is nowhere to be found. But over time, one can learn to become attuned to rising emotion or, at least, associated sensations in the body. With that practice of presence, grace is granted.
Even in the space of one breath, everything can change. When we feel provoked, that space allows us to provide context. The response loses intensity because triggers work best in the absence of perspective. They thrive in a void.
Presence is the countermeasure to the threat of that void. Triggers lose their power when you are in communion with your essence.
There are several ways to get where you want to go. Many of them are impossible for you to imagine because Divine orchestration can intervene in any way at any time.
However, there will be periods when you feel like your back is up against the wall. You may feel panicked by the sense of restriction. Rather than succumb to the fear or start blaming yourself for not having acted sooner, reframe the tension.
Your choices “drying up” may just be the Universe helping to coral you in a particular direction. You still have a choice to accept it or not. Breathe through it and remember that what feels confining is really just encouraging focus.
When feeling unsafe, ego can easily take the lead. Rather than evenly deal with what is at hand, we revert to a defensive posture which often resulted from some long ago offense.
To stand in the truth before you, without the illusory protection that ego provides, can be terrifying. However, this is the only state in which growth can occur. This is where you challenge old (often misguided) beliefs and discard constricted perspectives. There is space to do so.
Ego is scarred and scar tissue is unable to grow. It is resistant. To let it run the show is to choose confinement.