There is the age old question of whether humans are inherently good or evil. To answer this question for ourselves in incredibly important because it determines the way life unfolds for you.
If you believe that evil lies at your core, then life is spent struggling against it or succumbing to it. You end up fighting yourself. Life must be a battle because the odds are stacked against you from the beginning.
If you believe good is your essence, then life is about dismantling the negativity you may have mistakenly adopted. You always have the option for recovery when you veer. Life is aspirational.
Do you ever find yourself embroiled in an ongoing drama you just can’t shake? Or perhaps you’re in a different time with different people but the same situation?
It’s easy to look at a familiar cast of characters and say “Why does this always happen to me?” The more powerful question is, “What role am I playing?”
This isn’t about self-blame. It’s about self-inquiry. Understanding how deeply identified you may be with a particular role then gives you the freedom to stop typecasting yourself. Only then can you shift the dynamic to something more favorable.
Who you engage and how you engage them is of consequence in your moment to moment experience. Every interaction is an energy exchange and rarely are they neutral.
We are undeniably entangled and to maintain and enhance your reserves depends on your level of conscious engagement. That is not to say that each interaction must be one of profound meaning, but it is to consistently account for the replenishing and depletion of your energy.
Each party can leave fully charged, completely drained or one can feed off the other. Your mindfulness will dictate the outcome.
When our triggers are set off, rationale is nowhere to be found. But over time, one can learn to become attuned to rising emotion or, at least, associated sensations in the body. With that practice of presence, grace is granted.
Even in the space of one breath, everything can change. When we feel provoked, that space allows us to provide context. The response loses intensity because triggers work best in the absence of perspective. They thrive in a void.
Presence is the countermeasure to the threat of that void. Triggers lose their power when you are in communion with your essence.
There are several ways to get where you want to go. Many of them are impossible for you to imagine because Divine orchestration can intervene in any way at any time.
However, there will be periods when you feel like your back is up against the wall. You may feel panicked by the sense of restriction. Rather than succumb to the fear or start blaming yourself for not having acted sooner, reframe the tension.
Your choices “drying up” may just be the Universe helping to coral you in a particular direction. You still have a choice to accept it or not. Breathe through it and remember that what feels confining is really just encouraging focus.